A beautiful smiling face had awakened me out of another restless sleep. He stared at me intently, waiting for a sign of life then said,
“Hi Momma. Breakfast?”
Before I could answer, he took off running scampering as fast as his happy feet could carry him. I wished that I had his energy as I dragged my tired and weak body out of bed.
In the kitchen, the sun shone brightly through windows, accentuating the filth they had collected over the fall and winter months. I made my way to the patio door and paused to feel the sun to lightly kiss my pale cheeks. I slid down the wall slowly to the floor, allowing the sun’s bright rays to briefly recharge my soul.
Soon after Chunky had taken a place next to me. It was a nonchalant hint to get moving because he was hungry and ready to start the day. I took in a breath, feeling thankful that he keeps me motivated enough to move forward, one foot at a time.
I am thankful that this little spirit keeps me fighting every day.
A couple of weeks ago, Katherine Stone, author of Postpartum Progress, asked if I wanted to become a part of something very grande. It would allow me to take my struggles with postpartum depression and turn it into a loud voice that will help others. She asked me to be a contributing writer and I was completely blown away. And most definitely honoured.
In my current state of mind, I knew what I was going to write first.
My love for my son.
I really don’t know where I would be without this love, without this awesome little soul that drives me to keep fighting every day.
I love him dearly.
To read more, please head over to Postpartum Progress.
Thank you to all of you for your continued support during this difficult time. You all amaze the shit out of me and I couldn’t be more thankful for every comment, tweet, email and prayers you all send. This community? Rocks.
I think you rock. Chunky too.
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you rock
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Writing is the most amazing therapy, you know. Congratulations.
I hope that sunlight finds you more and more. Know that you are loved, even when I’m away in my little writing shell, I am thinking of my bloggy friends. Keep putting one foot in front of the other, my friend.
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Go, mama! Congrats on your new gig over at Postpartum Progress. Will enjoy following your columns!
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That is awesome, Kimberly! You are the perfect person for that position. You write so well. You write about deep issues that make us think and cry. You also can make us laugh out loud. Perfect.
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Such a strong piece. Thank you for writing this piece, I can relate to the feelings. You give me hope! Keep writing!
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I read it. It was wonderful. You’re amazing.
PS. Love your new layout!
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That’s great news! Also? Love the new design!
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Well, you know, you also rock
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I agree with Kelly and Sheila, You ROCK!
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I love your new look. I’m heading over to read more about your love right now. That’s the best thing about having a kid. I don’t think there’s any other way to know love that intense.
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Hooray! That’s fabulous! You are such a talented writer, and so true to the cause.
Perfect match!
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You are going to be such a wonderful addition to the site. I’m so happy for you! (and for them for snagging you.)
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you know I am so very proud of you. so very proud.
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Congrats Kimberly – that’s awesome! And that Chunky, he just melts my heart. ♥
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You have a wonderful gift through your writing and what better place for your efforts than to support other women going through Postpartum Depression. So pleased to hear this great news!
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Like your new diggs here!
And I am always a fan of your writing, no matter where it is.
mwah
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Yay for such great news! You rock!
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Thank you so much for sharing such a personal story. You are an incredibly talented writer and the description of your feelings stirred up a lot of emotion in me. I’m so glad you have found support within the blogging community. xo
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Well congrats Kimberly! It amazes me that you’re able to go somewhere positive with all that is happening in ur life.
I’ve been scared from time to time since the worst of my PPD passed as life events have tried to draw it back. It’s something I think I will always be susceptible to. I think with the love & support in our lives, as you mention, we can make it through!
Keep going girl!
Xx
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been thinking about you.
so you know
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Girl, this is so great. Congrats on this new adventure. You are amazing, never forget that. This too shall pass. {{{HUGS}}}
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Don’t be blown away…you are a brilliant writer and you’ll help tons of women suffering from PPD with your raw, honest approach in sharing your experiences.
I remember reading that site awhile back when my PPD was at its worst after having Garrett and Landon. Sometimes reading it was the only thing that got me through the day without wanting to drive my car into a brick wall.
Good for you….I know you’ll be successful at it!!
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Haven’t had the chance to read you over there, but I KNOW in my heart how amazing your writing will be and how incredible and supportive you’ll be for moms who are just starting this journey, as well. Much love!
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That’s excellent! So glad to hear this – she made an excellent choice.
Keep fighting the good fight.
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