Sometimes itâs not the medicine that I take every single day
Nor the time spent being counseled by my psychiatrist,
Nor the self-help books I pick up at the library.
Sometimes itâs not the wishing
Nor the praying
Then the dreaded waiting for either to work.
Sometimes itâs just sitting in the middle of the room surrounded by the ones I love
And soaking in their smiles.
Sometimes itâs the closeness of my sister
And knowing that I always have her to count on.
Sometimes itâs finding my camera filled with photos that I have not taken
My family is not perfect
But we sure know how to have a good time TOGETHER.
Sometimes itâs putting the worry aside about what other’s will think
And just having unadulterated fun.
Sometimes it’s letting go of the problems of the past and not thinking about potential problems of tomorrow
Sometimes it’s about letting INÂ and embracing the NOW.
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And realizing how wonderfully blessed I am
In this moment.
Sometimes itâs remembering that I am witnessing and taking part in something so much bigger in this life
I am his Mother.
I am helping to shape a future
And he is helping to shape mine.
I think weâre doing a pretty good job at it.
Sometimes itâs recognizing that on my worst days,
That I am somebodyâs daughter,
Sister,
Wife,
Aunt
And friend
They love me no matter what.
It is not a pill.
It is not a doctor.
Itâs unequivocally the power of my family and friend’s love that saves me every single day.
It has always been them.
They make me certain that this life
Is worth fighting for.
I will never give up.
I would say how heartwarmingly beautiful this post is, and how much I love this pictures, the way you’ve strung your words together to weave something so good for the soul…..but I’m too teary eyed & stuff, can’t see the keys on my keyboard.
AHHHHHHH! I love you thiiiiiiiiiis (arms stretched out, reaching through my fingers yoga style) much! and I’m sharing this on my FB page (Butterfly confesssions)
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Kimberly Reply:
August 26th, 2011 at 8:36 am
@A’Driane, I love you so much too Addy. You and I are in this for the long haul my friend. We’re totally going to kick some serious ass.
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Oh my. This is so so beautiful. You’re so lucky to have them. And they are so lucky to have you.
And so are we.
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Kimberly Reply:
August 26th, 2011 at 8:25 am
@story, It’s taken me a while to really know this. our illness makes us feel so insignificant in our own lives but we have to remember that we are more than just our illness. We are moms, wives, friends etc…and that is pretty important. We are all worth this fight.
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Loving this and you are so right
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Kimberly Reply:
August 26th, 2011 at 8:25 am
@Amy, Thank you Amy
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you are a ridiculously beautiful family! love these words!
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Kimberly Reply:
August 26th, 2011 at 8:24 am
@grace, I love your face too Momma
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damn, i love this. well said.
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You are so right Kimberley! This is what it’s about! There is more to us than just ourselves.
This is one of those posts that I am going to remember for a very long time! Thank you!!
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Kimberly Reply:
August 26th, 2011 at 8:24 am
@Leighann, You know, when I watched my son blow out his candles on his birthday, I realized how lucky I was. Sometimes our illness makes us feel like we are so insignificant, yet we aren’t. We’re moms wives…etc…we are special and we do have a place in this life and we are important.
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I’m so happy that you have so much support at your fingertips. They love you and are there for you. You’re so lucky for that.
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Kimberly Reply:
August 26th, 2011 at 8:22 am
@Krista, I really am. Sometimes I forget that.
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My favorite part is:
“I am helping to shape a future
And he is helping to shape mine.
I think weâre doing a pretty good job at it.”
That’s awesome. I never even thought about it that way before. Such a wonderful perspective, Kim. Thanks for sharing it with us!
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Kimberly Reply:
August 26th, 2011 at 8:22 am
@Jaime {james and jax}, I think it helps me knowing that I’m so much bigger than my illness…like I’m a Mom!! I’m helping to shape a future…that’s pretty friggen awesome!! Because sometimes our illness can make us feel so insignificant in life…and we don’t realize how important and special we are.
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beautiful words and a nice reminder of what we are doing. As always thanks for sharing.
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Kimberly Reply:
August 26th, 2011 at 8:22 am
@jenn, Thank you Jenn
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You knocked me over with this one. I was just thinking, as I walked around weith my iced coffee and annoyed my daughter until she finally got out of bed, “Why am I so happy now that I’m getting old? I mean, I’m on a hell of a lot less medications than years ago”. You put the answer out there for me. Thank you.
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Kimberly Reply:
August 26th, 2011 at 8:20 am
@Chrissy, It has taken me a long time to realize this…long…long…time.
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Wouldn’t it be nice if all of these things could actually replace the meds and the psychiatrist? I wish this for you.
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Kimberly Reply:
August 26th, 2011 at 8:19 am
@Nancy, That would be so awesome…because the medications make my ass fat and my hair fall out…
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I loved this so much, I just wanted to HUG you after reading it.
You are so right, it’s is about the little stuff, sweating the small stuff that gets us through the big stuff.
I am always here for you my friend. I’m so glad that you know that.
xox
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Kimberly Reply:
August 26th, 2011 at 8:19 am
@Kir, Thank you so much Kir. You’re an amazing friend.
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Put it in a bottle and sell it and you’d be a rich woman in more ways than one!
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Kimberly Reply:
August 26th, 2011 at 8:18 am
@jen, Ha!! If only I could figure how to do that
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This gave me chills! Such a positive outlook and it’s so true! It’s life that makes life worth living!
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Kimberly Reply:
August 26th, 2011 at 8:17 am
@Kelly @ City Mom, It took a long time for that positive to finally shine through and now that it has…I’m hanging on to that mofo with everything I’ve got
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Lovely post. You are very blessed to have such a family. It isn’t the norm, you know. Thank you for sharing.
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Kimberly Reply:
August 26th, 2011 at 8:16 am
@Jemima, I am very blessed. We aren’t perfect but we know how to rally behind each other. It’s taken me a while to fully grasp that.
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Bravo, Kimberley! You are really taking in that you and the love of your family are BIGGER than your illness – and that you are NOT your illness – and this is what will heal you -
I think you would do this anyway, from what I sense of you – but please share this major insight with anyone you know who is going through or who will go through a post-partum illness, or any illness, for that matter – it will help them enormously -
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Kimberly Reply:
August 26th, 2011 at 8:15 am
@Janet, I’ve been fighting this so long and I just had an ah-ha moment. It’s like I realized that I am a big part of this picture in life…and that there is so much more to it. Thanks Janet
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Love this post. Just got diagnosed and I needed to read this. Thanks
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Kimberly Reply:
August 26th, 2011 at 8:13 am
@imperfectmomma, Hang in there girl. You’ll get there…I promise you that.
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Kimberly Reply:
August 26th, 2011 at 8:16 am
@imperfectmomma, You will get there. The initial days/weeks were rough, but you will get there. Hang on to the love of your family and friends tooth and nail and cling to their strength when you feel week.
You’ll kick it’s ass. Promise you that.
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Amen.
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Nothing better than unconditional love. Beautiful.
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Kimberly Reply:
August 26th, 2011 at 8:12 am
@Diane, Nope. It pulls me through every single day
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Love it. Awesome post.
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That is a great attitude. Never give up.
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Kimberly Reply:
August 26th, 2011 at 8:12 am
@Jessica, Not with my army behind me. I never will
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Girlfriend. You amaze me. Love you, hotstuff.
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Kimberly Reply:
August 26th, 2011 at 8:11 am
@MommaKiss, I want to kiss your face. Love you too
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God, I love that kids smile.
Great family pictures. I would love to hang out with you guys.
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Kimberly Reply:
August 26th, 2011 at 8:11 am
@Donna, We would totally love to hang out with you!! LOVE
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You’re so right. That support and your perspective will get you through. You’re doing awesome.
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Kimberly Reply:
August 26th, 2011 at 8:10 am
@Robin @ Farewell, Stranger, Thanks Robin
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Love your perspective, Kimberly. It will take you through the hard times. Hang on in there!
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Kimberly Reply:
August 26th, 2011 at 8:10 am
@Alison@Mama Wants This, Thank you Alison
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Absolutely beautiful post! Thank you for sharing it.
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Kimberly Reply:
August 26th, 2011 at 8:11 am
@Karyn Climans, Thank you Karyn
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Yes, yes, yes! Perfect.
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Beautiful! I loved it. It definitely puts things into perspective.
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Kimberly Reply:
August 26th, 2011 at 7:38 am
@Nicole, Thank you Nicole
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LOVELY pics!
Sometimes, family can give you what a psychiatrist never could.
Other times, they’ll be the reason you end up with a psychiatrist.
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Kimberly Reply:
August 26th, 2011 at 7:37 am
@Pop, I also forgot to add that wine helps oh and vacations AWAY from family
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I love this so much. I love you so much. You shine so bright. I hope you can see it.
and yes, you are doing a good job with each other.
This post is really about trust in the power of love. You got it, mama.
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Kimberly Reply:
August 26th, 2011 at 7:36 am
@@YaelSaar, Thank you so much Yael…it’s taken a long time to have this ah-ha moment. I know that my life is more than just this awful illness…that I’m worth so much to so many.
Love you too
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Honey, I don’t think there’s anyone out there who understands this more than I in this very moment. Life is precious. It’s a gift. It should be treated with delicacy and respect. I will never take it for granted again. I love you sister!
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Kimberly Reply:
August 26th, 2011 at 7:35 am
@Pamela Gold, Oh Pamela…love your face so hard. You’ve trudged through this by my side and know that I’m here for you more than ever in this moment. I wish I was there for you last week. We can kick this in the ass….a la Chuck Norris style.
Love you too.
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—Beautiful Post.
Sometimes we just need family, friends, & chocolate rather than Prozac. x
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Kimberly Reply:
August 26th, 2011 at 7:34 am
@My Inner Chick, Dang I totally forgot about the chocolate
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You all look like your having such a great time! Awesome pictures!!
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Kimberly Reply:
August 26th, 2011 at 7:33 am
@Laci, It was taken the weekend of my son’s birthday. We all had reason to celebrate
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Kim, you’re making me tear up. This is JUST what I needed to hear. It’s like sometimes when we’re in the thick of our illness we can’t see past it. It envelopes us and we BECOME our sickness. But we don’t have to and leaning on those who support you no matter what? Well, that’s just the good stuff of life.
I will never give up ON you
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Kimberly Reply:
August 26th, 2011 at 7:33 am
@molly, I will never give up on you either friend. We can do this
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This was absolutely beautiful, Kimberly!! I loved, loved, loved it. So touching. You have a beautiful family! You look so pretty in all of the pictures. You have such an awesome way with words. Knowing only those few things, I know you are blessed!
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This is just beautiful. I wish I had something more profound to say than that, but it’s the truth. xo
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Those ARE the things to remember! For all of us, everyday.
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Beautifully said! Happy (belated) Birthday to your little one…his smile is so big and bright — I smiled back…All of the work you are doing is working; you are participating in and living life and your smile shows it!
Rock on!!!
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You are awesome. I need to take a page from your book and start taking more pictures. I love that you always have so many great pictures of just daily life. I’ve gotten horrible and there are barely any real camera pics of my sweet girl. Fail. Must get it in gear.
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What a happy group of pictures. You made me happy just looking at them. They just oozy the good time that went on for your little man’s birthday.
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Oh how I love this one, too. Those moments are priceless, and far better to remember than anything else. I sure needed this today. (Can I come over to your next family party? They look silly fun!!!)
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