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Just What The Psychiatrist Never Ordered

Sometimes it’s not the medicine that I take every single day

Nor the time spent being counseled by my psychiatrist,

Nor the self-help books I pick up at the library.

Sometimes it’s not the wishing

Nor the praying

Then the dreaded waiting for either to work.

Sometimes it’s just sitting in the middle of the room surrounded by the ones I love

And soaking in their smiles.

Sometimes it’s the closeness of my sister

And knowing that I always have her to count on.

 

Sometimes it’s finding my camera filled with photos that I have not taken

My family is not perfect

But we sure know how to have a good time TOGETHER.

Sometimes it’s putting the worry aside about what other’s will think

And just having unadulterated fun.

Sometimes it’s letting go of the problems of the past and not thinking about potential problems of tomorrow

Sometimes it’s about letting IN and embracing the NOW.

 

And realizing how wonderfully blessed I am

In this moment.

 

Sometimes it’s remembering that I am witnessing and taking part in something so much bigger in this life

I am his Mother.

I am helping to shape a future

And he is helping to shape mine.

I think we’re doing a pretty good job at it.

Sometimes it’s recognizing that on my worst days,

That I am somebody’s daughter,

Sister,

Wife,

Aunt

And friend

They love me no matter what.

It is not a pill.

It is not a doctor.

It’s unequivocally the power of my family and friend’s love that saves me every single day.

It has always been them.

They make me certain that this life

Is worth fighting for.

I will never give up.

76 Comments

  1. I would say how heartwarmingly beautiful this post is, and how much I love this pictures, the way you’ve strung your words together to weave something so good for the soul…..but I’m too teary eyed & stuff, can’t see the keys on my keyboard.

    AHHHHHHH! I love you thiiiiiiiiiis (arms stretched out, reaching through my fingers yoga style) much! and I’m sharing this on my FB page (Butterfly confesssions)

    • Kimberly Kimberly

      @A’Driane, I love you so much too Addy. You and I are in this for the long haul my friend. We’re totally going to kick some serious ass.

  2. Oh my. This is so so beautiful. You’re so lucky to have them. And they are so lucky to have you.

    And so are we.

    • Kimberly Kimberly

      @story, It’s taken me a while to really know this. our illness makes us feel so insignificant in our own lives but we have to remember that we are more than just our illness. We are moms, wives, friends etc…and that is pretty important. We are all worth this fight.

  3. Amy Amy

    Loving this and you are so right 😉

    • Kimberly Kimberly

      @Amy, Thank you Amy

  4. you are a ridiculously beautiful family! love these words!

    • Kimberly Kimberly

      @grace, I love your face too Momma

  5. You are so right Kimberley! This is what it’s about! There is more to us than just ourselves.
    This is one of those posts that I am going to remember for a very long time! Thank you!!

    • Kimberly Kimberly

      @Leighann, You know, when I watched my son blow out his candles on his birthday, I realized how lucky I was. Sometimes our illness makes us feel like we are so insignificant, yet we aren’t. We’re moms wives…etc…we are special and we do have a place in this life and we are important.

  6. I’m so happy that you have so much support at your fingertips. They love you and are there for you. You’re so lucky for that.

    • Kimberly Kimberly

      @Krista, I really am. Sometimes I forget that.

  7. My favorite part is:
    “I am helping to shape a future

    And he is helping to shape mine.

    I think we’re doing a pretty good job at it.”

    That’s awesome. I never even thought about it that way before. Such a wonderful perspective, Kim. Thanks for sharing it with us!

    • Kimberly Kimberly

      @Jaime {james and jax}, I think it helps me knowing that I’m so much bigger than my illness…like I’m a Mom!! I’m helping to shape a future…that’s pretty friggen awesome!! Because sometimes our illness can make us feel so insignificant in life…and we don’t realize how important and special we are.

  8. beautiful words and a nice reminder of what we are doing. As always thanks for sharing.

    • Kimberly Kimberly

      @jenn, Thank you Jenn

  9. You knocked me over with this one. I was just thinking, as I walked around weith my iced coffee and annoyed my daughter until she finally got out of bed, “Why am I so happy now that I’m getting old? I mean, I’m on a hell of a lot less medications than years ago”. You put the answer out there for me. Thank you.

    • Kimberly Kimberly

      @Chrissy, It has taken me a long time to realize this…long…long…time.

  10. Wouldn’t it be nice if all of these things could actually replace the meds and the psychiatrist? I wish this for you. 🙂

    • Kimberly Kimberly

      @Nancy, That would be so awesome…because the medications make my ass fat and my hair fall out… 😉

  11. Kir Kir

    I loved this so much, I just wanted to HUG you after reading it.
    You are so right, it’s is about the little stuff, sweating the small stuff that gets us through the big stuff.

    I am always here for you my friend. I’m so glad that you know that.

    xox

    • Kimberly Kimberly

      @Kir, Thank you so much Kir. You’re an amazing friend.

  12. jen jen

    Put it in a bottle and sell it and you’d be a rich woman in more ways than one!

    • Kimberly Kimberly

      @jen, Ha!! If only I could figure how to do that

  13. This gave me chills! Such a positive outlook and it’s so true! It’s life that makes life worth living!

    • Kimberly Kimberly

      @Kelly @ City Mom, It took a long time for that positive to finally shine through and now that it has…I’m hanging on to that mofo with everything I’ve got 😉

  14. Lovely post. You are very blessed to have such a family. It isn’t the norm, you know. Thank you for sharing.

    • Kimberly Kimberly

      @Jemima, I am very blessed. We aren’t perfect but we know how to rally behind each other. It’s taken me a while to fully grasp that.

  15. Janet Janet

    Bravo, Kimberley! You are really taking in that you and the love of your family are BIGGER than your illness – and that you are NOT your illness – and this is what will heal you –

    I think you would do this anyway, from what I sense of you – but please share this major insight with anyone you know who is going through or who will go through a post-partum illness, or any illness, for that matter – it will help them enormously –

    • Kimberly Kimberly

      @Janet, I’ve been fighting this so long and I just had an ah-ha moment. It’s like I realized that I am a big part of this picture in life…and that there is so much more to it. Thanks Janet

  16. Love this post. Just got diagnosed and I needed to read this. Thanks

    • Kimberly Kimberly

      @imperfectmomma, Hang in there girl. You’ll get there…I promise you that.

    • Kimberly Kimberly

      @imperfectmomma, You will get there. The initial days/weeks were rough, but you will get there. Hang on to the love of your family and friends tooth and nail and cling to their strength when you feel week.
      You’ll kick it’s ass. Promise you that.

  17. Nothing better than unconditional love. Beautiful.

    • Kimberly Kimberly

      @Diane, Nope. It pulls me through every single day

  18. That is a great attitude. Never give up.

    • Kimberly Kimberly

      @Jessica, Not with my army behind me. I never will

  19. Girlfriend. You amaze me. Love you, hotstuff.

    • Kimberly Kimberly

      @MommaKiss, I want to kiss your face. Love you too

  20. God, I love that kids smile.

    Great family pictures. I would love to hang out with you guys.

    • Kimberly Kimberly

      @Donna, We would totally love to hang out with you!! LOVE

  21. Love your perspective, Kimberly. It will take you through the hard times. Hang on in there!

  22. Absolutely beautiful post! Thank you for sharing it.

  23. Beautiful! I loved it. It definitely puts things into perspective.

  24. Pop Pop

    LOVELY pics!

    Sometimes, family can give you what a psychiatrist never could.

    Other times, they’ll be the reason you end up with a psychiatrist.

    • Kimberly Kimberly

      @Pop, I also forgot to add that wine helps oh and vacations AWAY from family

  25. I love this so much. I love you so much. You shine so bright. I hope you can see it.
    and yes, you are doing a good job with each other.
    This post is really about trust in the power of love. You got it, mama.

    • Kimberly Kimberly

      @@YaelSaar, Thank you so much Yael…it’s taken a long time to have this ah-ha moment. I know that my life is more than just this awful illness…that I’m worth so much to so many.
      Love you too

  26. Honey, I don’t think there’s anyone out there who understands this more than I in this very moment. Life is precious. It’s a gift. It should be treated with delicacy and respect. I will never take it for granted again. I love you sister!

    • Kimberly Kimberly

      @Pamela Gold, Oh Pamela…love your face so hard. You’ve trudged through this by my side and know that I’m here for you more than ever in this moment. I wish I was there for you last week. We can kick this in the ass….a la Chuck Norris style.
      Love you too.

  27. —Beautiful Post.
    Sometimes we just need family, friends, & chocolate rather than Prozac. x

  28. You all look like your having such a great time! Awesome pictures!!

    • Kimberly Kimberly

      @Laci, It was taken the weekend of my son’s birthday. We all had reason to celebrate

  29. Kim, you’re making me tear up. This is JUST what I needed to hear. It’s like sometimes when we’re in the thick of our illness we can’t see past it. It envelopes us and we BECOME our sickness. But we don’t have to and leaning on those who support you no matter what? Well, that’s just the good stuff of life.

    I will never give up ON you 🙂

    • Kimberly Kimberly

      @molly, I will never give up on you either friend. We can do this

  30. This was absolutely beautiful, Kimberly!! I loved, loved, loved it. So touching. You have a beautiful family! You look so pretty in all of the pictures. You have such an awesome way with words. Knowing only those few things, I know you are blessed!

  31. This is just beautiful. I wish I had something more profound to say than that, but it’s the truth. xo

  32. Those ARE the things to remember! For all of us, everyday.

  33. Beautifully said! Happy (belated) Birthday to your little one…his smile is so big and bright — I smiled back…All of the work you are doing is working; you are participating in and living life and your smile shows it!

    Rock on!!!

  34. You are awesome. I need to take a page from your book and start taking more pictures. I love that you always have so many great pictures of just daily life. I’ve gotten horrible and there are barely any real camera pics of my sweet girl. Fail. Must get it in gear.

  35. What a happy group of pictures. You made me happy just looking at them. They just oozy the good time that went on for your little man’s birthday.

  36. Leanne (fromchaoscomeshappiness) Leanne (fromchaoscomeshappiness)

    Oh how I love this one, too. Those moments are priceless, and far better to remember than anything else. I sure needed this today. (Can I come over to your next family party? They look silly fun!!!)

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