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If You Blink

He kicked off his flip flops, sank comfortably in the dentist’s chair, and told the hygienist that he was proudly going into grade one.

“And it looks like you’ll be starting grade one without your two front teeth,” she said as she gave his teeth a wiggle. He practically made himself gag when he quickly pushed her hand away and shoved his right index finger and his thumb into his mouth. He grasped onto his teeth and gave them a good jerk.

“Oh my gosh! Momma, I’m going to get my big people teeth!”

Oh my gosh is right.

Didn’t he just grow baby teeth?

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Every time my son hits a milestone, I hear the wise old bats in my life nagging about that old time adage, “If you blink you’ll miss it.”

Damn it.

They were right.

It seems like it was just yesterday when I took center stage in front of hundreds of strangers. It came and went in only five minutes, but in five minutes, I was able to tell them years of our story thus far of trials, triumph, and endless hope.

The gym is that way...

Scenes from the 2014 Listen To Your Mother Detroit Show. Taken Sunday, May 4, 2014 at St. Andrews in Detroit. All images © Jarrad Henderson, 2014. Contact Jarradhenderson.com for reprints. For more information about the show, please visit www.listentoyourmothershow.com/metrodetroit

Without further ado, here is my reading at the Listen To Your Mother Show: Metro Detroit back in May of this year.

To my postpartum depression and bipolar mom warriors, and to my boys who love me no matter what:

 

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41 comments to If You Blink

  • Tina

    You did a REMARKABLE job Kim. I am so proud to call you my friend. Brought tears to my eyes. Love you. xoxo

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    Kimberly Reply:

    @Tina, Thank you so much. And thank you for always being there to hold me up! xoxo

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  • I tell what our dear…it’s 4:30 P.D.T. here in Reno on this Wednesday and I have tears POURING and POURING down my face. Oh wow do I ever as I’m trying to catch my breath, Kimberly. That was so very moving you knocked it out of the park! I loved it because it’s something I had the immense blessing to talk with you about a few months ago. You are a rock star in my book and hero to more than you will ever possibly fathom. You inspire me always and it’s the deepest honor to call our friend of which you have two very loyal ones here in this house. Many hugs :)

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    Kimberly Reply:

    @Mike, Thank you SO much Mike. Now you’re making me cry. My kid is looking at me like I’ve lost my marbles. Know what he said after he watched it?
    “That was a really good story momma. I love you to the moon and back too”
    Gah…
    I’m thankful that you pushed me to carry through with it. Really. It was one hell of an amazing experience.

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  • The wise old bats are unfortunately right a lot.
    And the video made me cry today. And now I know your voice!
    xoxo.

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    Kimberly Reply:

    @Tamara, Is it everything that you’d hope it would be?
    Yes, they are right…
    …kicks dirt.

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    Tamara Reply:

    It’s even better.

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  • Wow Kim. This video is so beautiful. I love that you made me laugh out loud and tear up all in five minutes. You spoke wonderfully. I can’t wait for you T.E.D. talk ;)
    I might need to show this video to some people in my life. (good people who want to understand more…)
    Congratulations. and good on you brave mama.

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    Kimberly Reply:

    @Lyla Jackson, DO IT!! Any of the videos are amazing!
    TED talks…whew…now that is big time. I love watching them. LOVE

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  • THANK YOU. Thank you for using your voice and your words to give a face to postpartum depression and mental illness. Your LTYM story is perfect and beautiful and even though I couldn’t be there to see you I am so glad I got to watch this video and see your beautiful face read these words. You ARE a GREAT mom. You are wonderful.

    And now I’m going to dry my eyes and remind myself that I’m a pretty amazing mama too.

    I love you Kim! XO

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    Kimberly Reply:

    @Roxanne, you absolutely are a good momma. That is part of the reason why I wanted to do it. People have the misconception that we cannot be good moms. We are evil beings who weld knives and they feel bad for our children. Our kids are always loved even when we are unable to care for them the way we’d like to. There is always people there to step in to help and even during those times, we never EVER stop loving them. people don’t understand how hard we work to be well.
    We are normal peeps. xoxo

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  • You know my heart. No other words.

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    Kimberly Reply:

    @Charity, and it is a pretty looking heart.

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  • I am so proud of you. Thank you for sharing this.
    I need to go find a tissue.
    xoxoxo

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    Kimberly Reply:

    @Deborah / Mom2Michael, HAHAH…Thank you so much xoxo

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  • LOoooooooooooooVE!

    Your voice is POWERFUL and Meaningful and Funny and Brilliant and resonates into the universe like those bouncing balls you were talking about…

    Thank you for utilizing your experience to help other women. This is your mission. This is your gift.

    Amazing video. I shall pass on…

    Sitting in Duluth applauding and loving you, Kimberly. xx

    PS. Your honesty and passion makes you A GREAT Mama, btw.

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    Kimberly Reply:

    @My Inner Chick, You have me in tears. Oh I wish that we could meet in real life. I think that no matter what struggle we endure, we make others aware of the triumphs that come afterwards. Even though it hurts. xoxoxo

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  • Thanks for sharing! You are amazing.

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    Kimberly Reply:

    @Eva Gallant, Thank you so much Eva. It took a lot to get me up there.

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  • I still love this, and your video, and you for being so wonderful and SUCH a fab mom. You rockstar.

    And THBBBPPPPPPPT to old bats who harangue you about ‘don’t blink’, as though you’re meant to somehow love every second.

    I can say it NO better than Glennon – so I hereby order, instruct, and otherwise much as possible frog-march you over to read this… http://momastery.com/blog/2012/01/04/2011-lesson-2-dont-carpe-diem/

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    Kimberly Reply:

    @Considerer, That is absolutely brilliant and so very true! I love that she was right upfront and did it with honesty. Put a whole new perspective on living in the moment without needing to suck it all in out of fear that it will slip by. Often, I find myself feeling guilty when I put a larger size shoe on him or when I didn’t catch the moment when he learned how to read some sight words…this is just … blew my mind.

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    Considerer Reply:

    @Kimberly, Don’t feel guilty – you’re amazing :) Don’t dwell on the things you miss – it’s IMPOSSIBLE for one person to be there for *everything* – just enjoy the bits you ARE there for :)

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  • What an amazing writeup!! And, you delivered it beautifully!! Well done!! :)

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    Kimberly Reply:

    @Roshni, Thank you so much Roshni

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  • Oh Kimberly. I’ve been away from blogging, but I’ve wondered how this went. Whatever made me log on, on this day, and read this post… well, I’m so, so, so happy I got to hear it! Well done, momma, well done! You’ve taught me much over the last couple of years of reading your words and I remain in awe of how effing strong you are!

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    Ally Reply:

    @Ally, xoxo

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    Kimberly Reply:

    @Ally, Oh Ally!!! There you are!!! I am so happy that you swung by and saw this video. It was an amazing experience and terrifying at the same time. I’ve never just come out in person and said “Yo, I have bipolar disorder and this is how it rolled”…
    Thank you for all of the support you have given me throughout these years…
    and squeeeee your back!! xoxo

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  • Liv

    That was beautiful. I have tears in my eyes and a smile on my lips. Well done!

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    Kimberly Reply:

    @Liv, Liv, thank you xoxo

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  • Jen

    Kim, you were in my heart the entire day of your show. Alexandra and I talked about how you found Alexandra’s LTYM story at a time when you needed it. Just a few short years later, you’re in the first ever Detroit cast as the first Canadian. Woot woot! The circle of “me too” and hope in the face of adversity and challenges that would cause most other people to cave in just continues to multiple. I loved this post so much. I was in tears and laughing. Plus your accent is so adorable. You sounded exactly as I thought you would. xoxo

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    Kimberly Reply:

    @Jen, I have an accent eh? I should have thrown in more eh.
    Thank you so much Jen. Thank you for being a voice too. The more we put our fear aside and talk about our struggles and triumphs…the more we make our illness as normal as cancer and that it can be treated…man think of how many women and men we could help. xoxo

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  • I love you. I love your words, your voice, and what you’re doing. Beautiful job, mama. Simply perfect.

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    Kimberly Reply:

    @Kristi Campbell, You…you…thank you for encouraging me to keep pushing on when they chopped my piece in seven million pieces. xoxo

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  • Natalie

    I am SO proud of you, Kimber! So much love. xoxo

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    Kimberly Reply:

    @Natalie, Thank you so much babe!!!! xoxo

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  • I loved your reading, you were amazing.

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    Kimberly Reply:

    @Alison, Thank you so much Alison. They need to do a satellite version so you can do it too!

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  • There are no words to tell you how incredibly proud I am of you!
    xoxoxoxoxoxo

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    Kimberly Reply:

    @Leighann, Thank you for pushing me to do it xoxo Just don’t push me off of a cliff bitch

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  • Kir

    WOW! I loved your reading..loved hearing your voice and seeing your beautiful face tell that raw, honest, amazing story.

    You’re getting your big people teeth too it seems ;)

    love you hard, girlfriend. xo

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  • Just reading that would have been enough. But to see you and hear your voice – amazing, Kimberly.

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