My dentist really does have the most gentlest eyes I’ve ever seen and probably the most steadiest hands but I’m still terrified of him. I mean what dentist hums Ed Sheeran as he’s ready to take what appears to be some sort of medieval torture device and ram it square into a filling that I’ve had since the 1980’s?
I told him I couldn’t eat or drink without it feeling like someone is dragging a piece of aluminum foil down my tooth root.
Robert. Bob. Bobby. Bert. Come on now. It’s Christmas.
He said I needed a root canal and a crown.
Scheduled on Friday.
I choked on my spit when I saw the estimate.
Merry Christmas Kimberly.
I’d be lying if I said that 2017 was a good year. It was hard. It has been one of the biggest bullies I’ve ever encountered. We’ve battled teachers, principals, bring in the school board, family drama llamas, battling mental illness and chronic pain, taking care of someone I love with all of my heart and soul who is equally as sick, and trying to get treatment for illnesses that have plagued our house. My goodness we have fought so damn hard this year.
Someone said to me a little while ago that they didn’t know how I did it every day.
And sitting here on December 19th with a throbbing molar, melted snow and muddied dog prints all over the floor, taking a break from helping my son prep for his math test, I’m wondering how I’m going to get things rolling for the Christmas Eve party we throw when I still have 3 specialists appointments to attend to this week including the dentist.
Shoot, I am still not ready for Christmas Day.
I know it’ll be stressful as ever but it’ll work out because somehow, like all the other chaotic weeks and months this year, I just did it. I made it happen.
Just wake up and start.
I have to. There’s no other option.
Some days this year, I felt as though I’ve conquered mountains and other days I felt like I’ve only mastered drinking a cup of coffee while it was actually still warm. That’s an actual accomplishment in my book since some days, I forget where I’ve left my coffee.
Some days I stare in the mirror and see a stranger – a pale, thin, exhausted mum.
She’s overwhelmed but damn it, she hangs on.
Under all the horrible things that keep piling on top, I still believe that things will get better. They have to.
Track record has proven that the House of Chunky Monkey has always gotten better in time – especially when we have each other.
So I start every day with a hot coffee or tea and I get bonus points if I finish it before it runs cold.
I look for the good in the little things like talking to the cashier at the register. They have great stories you know. Wearing sunglasses in the winter, raw cookie dough for lunch, snail mail, indulging in salon shampoo, buying too many journals, dragging your feet in the grass, dog snores, kid snores, falling back in a fresh patch of snow.
I’ve done other things to help myself including joining a support group this year and it’s helped.
I see my doctors regularly.
Self care is an absolute must and that means saying no, taking time to myself, and allowing myself to leave the laundry for another day – guilt free – and crashing in an exhausted heap on the couch. Some nights I dive into books. Other nights I find that leaping into other worlds on T.V. is a much needed break from mine.
This year y’all, is the year I Netflixed.
So much so that we went over our bandwidth-thingy-ma-whatever-it-is-that-makes-your-husband-go “Holy crap babe! How much Netflix are you watching?”
I needed to. I laughed and cried and laughed and texted, “Did you see what that bleepity bleep did?”
And it wasn’t just me watching Netflix.
The whole family was. Every Friday night, we have movie night.
My husband and I got hooked on Shameless and let me tell you, there is no other series that will make you feel better about your current life situation than that show.
Chunky Monkey blasted through Buddy Thunderstruck (which I might add is pretty darn funny), currently watching the next round of Troll Hunters, Horrid Henry, Teen Titans Go, and always on is SpongeBob,
Some of the new series I found this year:
I really connected on a personal level with the series Atypical and both laughed and bawled my eyes out.
Then I got lost in the royal drama of The Crown. I had no idea…no idea *jaw drops*
Dirk Gently was one of my best finds on Netflix this year and it is so weird but I LOVED IT (come back for season 2 please!)
The lovely and hilarious Maria Bamford plays a bipolar actress in Lady Dynamite – This show will crack you up. Love this because Maria Bamford actually has bipolar disorder and OCD, and is vocal about mental health. YAS GIRL!
Stranger Things and Stranger Things 2 was a pleasant surprise. I almost skipped right over this series. I am so glad that I gave it a chance. It is so good! I blasted through it.
Chewing Gum. OH. MY. this show is too funny. Too funny.
Schitt’s Creek is also fantastic – 100% Canadian and 100% hilarious. The Levy’s…need I say more?
Thinking back to all the shows and movies we watched – it was some really good entertainment this year Netflix. Lots of laughs, deep thoughts, and feel good moments. My son and I just might have to forgive you for pulling Doctor Who off.
So 2017 wasn’t our year. I know that flipping the calendar won’t magically make things better. It’s going to take elbow grease still but we will get there.
Just wake up and start each day.
I have decided to make this my last post of 2017. I want to take the 2 weeks that my family has off for the holidays to focus on them…and me. Of course you can catch me on my Facebook Page and on my Instagram page.
As always, thank you to all of my readers old and new – you mean a great deal to me. More than you know. I hope that you have a wonderful holiday and I wish you all the best in 2018. Be safe out there in your travels.
And…Enjoy the little things because they’re the most important things. xoxox
Oh and if you’re looking for some awesome holiday movies Netflix does not disappoint. They’ve got a great lineup:
Trolls Holiday Special
A Storybots Christmas
A Christmas Prince
The Christmas Inheritance
Dreamworks Home: For The Holidays
So what shows have you discovered this year?
Which shows did you binge on this year?
What show/movie was your favourite this year?
What holiday shows will you be watching?
Disclaimer: I am a member of the Netflix Canada #StreamTeam and get special perks. As always, all opinions are my own.